I'm back! A personal reflection.
Updated: Sep 9, 2018
I've had some time off. It's been a few years since I've been working with people shamanically and I've enjoyed my sabbatical. But my spirits are clear. It is time to work again. It is my response-ability to the spirits and the craziness in our world situation that compels me to offer this work to the world.
That's not to say I'm not apprehensive.
This could mean many hours of hard work (where do I find the time?!). Courses need a lot of focus and time spent not just planning and organising, but spending time with spirit to ensure that spirit is at the heart of it all (where do I find the space?!). Shamanic healing involves preparation and commitment, a good relationship with Spirit. It means working with the 'am I good enough' dance that can trip me (all of us?) up from time to time. It means coming out of the shamanic closet, so to speak, where I've been lurking whilst focusing on other things - good and valuable 'things' such as family, work, friends who may not know this is part of what I do, part of who I am.
So am I good enough?
My spirits are clear. Who am I NOT to do this work? If I don't do it, who will? I'm very happy to step aside to a 'better' shamanic practitioner, but for now I offer what I can, with my spirits at my side. This is what gives me the power - it is of course nothing to do with me. I just have to work hard on connecting, letting it flow and keeping out of the way. I try. The ego is something we dance with, better or worse. Am I right to be walking this path? A beautiful feather was literally on my path on a run yesterday as I pondered this question, reminding me that everything is connected and that the spirits support my work. This connection is here for all of us, all of the time, we just have to learn how and remember to do so.
I was recently reminded of the famous Marianne Williamson poem "Our deepest fear". Our ability to shine, to work, to walk our path lies in all of us and the world is better for it. Just to remind you, or give you the gift of her words if you have not heard it, here it is. Meanwhile, I want to thank all those who have let their own light shine and lit a little more of my path, allowing me to take the next step. We can light each others' way.
Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, As children do. We were born to make manifest The glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; It's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.